What profound words of wisdom can I expound upon as 2012 comes to a close in my collection of days? It’s for sure that I am ending the year a heck of a lot wiser than I entered it, but I have paid a very dear price for it. However, in spite of it all, the lessons I have learned have helped me to set my feet back onto a solid path, and I am looking forward to the new year with hope and enthusiasm.
So, what have I learned this year?
First of all, I’ve learned that I am about the most naïve and trusting person on the face of the earth. I trusted in the wrong person over a very bad decision, believing that he was my soul mate who would protect and shield me in all things. Wrong!
I learned that I had very strong blinders on, and could not see what was going on all around me. I also learned that my family and friends loved me too much to try to tell me what they could see that I couldn’t. But then, with the blinders I was wearing, I probably wouldn’t have believed them. It took a crisis for me to shed the cursed things and see clearly. You know what they say about hindsight being 20-20. It’s true!
I also learned that my family and friends love me so much that they bent over backwards to support me and help me through this year, even when I disappointed them. I have discovered for myself what true love is and how unworthy I am of it.
Bitterness is a terrible taste in one’s mouth, and I have learned to spit it out and set my face toward the future, looking for the sunlight in my life. I have discovered wonders that I didn’t know existed, and have deepened my spirituality in believing that things happen for a reason, even when they set me on a terrifying path that at times seems endless and dark.
I have learned that each day I wake up is a gift. I experienced the depth of depression for a short period of time, out of which came the realization that I never want to visit that dark place again. I prefer to seek the sunshine and turn my face toward the sun.
There are many small blessings that might be overlooked in one’s life, and I have discovered that they may be the most powerful and important. I learned to look for the angels carrying these small gifts in my direction, and to be thankful.
But most of all, I learned in 2012 that my collection of days continues despite what happens to me. Each day is important and has its lessons to teach me. I am a different person than the one who wrote in this blog this time last year. I hope that I am a better person, a more humble person, and a more sensitive and compassionate person. I also hope that the lessons I’ve learned will become part of who I am and will follow me into the new year.
Happy New Year to all of my loyal readers!